|Is that supposed to be blood on the date book? What kind of message is that?|
I like the "buy handcuffs" note. Ball gag, not so much.
That explains the chest pain when I cough and also explains the non-stop coughing. Usually when I say "So, am I good to work?" She says "If you want some time off I can recommend it, how many days do you want?" And I say, "None." and she says "it's up to you". Today when I asked if I was good to work she said "NO!! You need rest. At least three or four days."
So here I am. Not working and feeling guilty.
I hate missing time. I hate it even more because even though we are not allowed a specific amount of sick days, I'm still paid for the days I miss. Usually I gauge how sick I am by asking myself if I would feel guilty accepting pay for the day I miss and if the answer is "Yes" (and it always is) I go in. It's been difficult the last while because we have been fully staffed. Believe me I hate to sound like I'm complaining about being fully staffed, I'm not really, but we have so many staff that I am not needed. So I'm left looking for something to do and unable to ignore how I'm feeling. When I'm not feeling well and we're understaffed I can immerse myself in work and forget about it all.
I'm feeling guilty for not working and feeling guilty for not posting more and feeling guilty for not following the blogs I usually visit on a daily basis. At least you know why now. I'm sure you'll sleep better.